Two years ago I did the 21 day sugar detox, twice! I blogged about it too. The first time (January), I fizzled out after Matt’s grandpa died, using that as my excuse to welcome wine back into my diet. The second time my goal was to get back to gluten free and eat clean, and I stayed gluten free for about a year after that. Pretty decent. (you can read my recaps of week one, week two, and week three, if you are interested). My motivation for the sugar detox wasn’t very solid though, and I think that’s why I kinda gave up on it. You see, getting rid of acne and a gluten baby are good goals, but honestly I will choose the Reese’s over that any day. My will power is strong, but only if I want it to be. I can pretty much do anything I put my mind to, but I can also talk myself out of a lot of things. Confusing, yes. Welcome to my mind. I digress, this time things are different.
A few of my meals and a puppy who wanted some meatloaves!
I started seeing a functional medicine doctor last summer. Matthew and I wanted answers to my infertility, and we also wanted a baby. So I asked my go to health person for a recommendation and he recommended Dr Hubbard. I have to say she was fantastic, but not covered by my insurance. I spent a few months seeing her, and had so much blood drawn (18 vials the first time, which was a lab mixup, they were only supposed to do half of it that day. oh well). All of the labwork showed a multitude of issues (greeeeat lol), including most likely PCOS. The diagnosis didn’t really scare me, in fact it comforted me because I already knew it, I just hadn’t had a doctor agree with me yet. However, after three or four months with really no changes and lots and lots of money spent on appointments and supplements, we decided to stop the appointments. I knew in my heart that my diet was a huge reason that no changes had happened. I hadn’t fully invested in my health yet. I wasn’t making changes for the right reasons. Fertility was the ONLY reason to make changes, and while good, it can be a frustrating road, especially after lost pregnancies. I knew that I actually needed a stricter eating plan (let’s just avoid the word diet) than her recommendation (no dairy, gluten / eggs / chicken / soy every 4 days), and I needed to fully eliminate sugar. Basically I need to go on an anti-candida diet. Until I got serious and did that, no supplements or acupuncture or essential oils would help. I had planned on a sugar detox in October, but decided to wait until after the holidays. I already knew that would get me off track, so why bother. And a pesky dirty needle stick to the hubs (thank you, AMR medic who is no longer employed) meant postponing the baby making for 6 months (thank you potentially underlying diseases that are dormant for 6 months. Really though we think he’s fine as the patient didn’t have it, but we just choose to be safe).
So with four months of that left, I can really, truly, finally focus on my health for the right reasons. I can accept the heart changes that God has been working in me and focus on health. I will choose to clean my diet and lifestyle because God made me to be his temple. It’s crazy how freeing it has been. I know everyone says “just stop trying to get pregnant and relax and you will get pregnant,” but can you honestly say you did that? I mean, honestly? Unless you are someone who did, if so I want to know how. Because I have tried. I stopped tracking and charting and even taking any meds. I tried to not think about it. It got me nowhere. We ladies have a monthly reminder at the very least. Go get wasted and then it will happen. Nope. Honestly. I love how everyone tries to help, but the biggest thing I have learned in this journey is no one is the same. My mentor had three failed attempts to IVF, adopted two handsome boys, and five years later (at fourty something) found herself pregnant. Do you really think that’s because she stopped stressing because she adopted? Also, I had one person tell me just to adopt because then I would get pregnant. I mean, it was what happened for her. But seriously, that is the worst reason to adopt. I really want to adopt. I do. But not so that I will not stress about a baby and be pregnant. Also, my sweet friend adopted an infant who is now seventeen months, and she didn’t magically get pregnant either. Would she love to be? Yes! Is that why she adopted? No. Okay, so I have totally gotten off track here and gone on a rant. But truly, I have no idea what to say some days when I talk to other women facing infertility. I can say it sucks, I kinda get it, ugh. But I can’t give them a magic pill, I can’t tell them why I’m at peace now. But I can tell them that I have truly been in the depths of despair and I am truly at peace now. And I can join them in prayer.
Okay. Seriously. So I’m doing this sugar detox to get my body healthy. I think it was hard to take the first step because I knew that it would not end in 21 days. I honestly have no idea when I will have wine again. Is that bad? Nope. But a lot of my social life was spent having wine with friends. That will change. Or at least, my beverage will change. And that’s okay. I just needed to be at a place where I was truly okay with it. Where I chose it. Where I stepped in freely. That’s how this sugar detox has been for me. Natural. Right. Normal. And I know it’s because God changed my heart about it. He has been preparing me. He has readied my heart and equips me with strength daily. He’s also given me a supportive husband (although he almost got punched when he told me how AMAZING the sugar free donuts were with brown sugar and honey on top. haha) He’s also given me wise friends who offer nutritional advise, council, and hugs! (Oh, and I can probably add stevia or honey back in at some point, but for the foreseeable future, no sugar / fruit / wine / etc even after the 21 days!)
Sugar free treats. Almond Butter Cups, Lemon Meltaways, Green Apple Donuts, and Chocolates
Last time, I did a photo challenge for the sugar detox. I’m doing it again this time. And, funny story, as I was reading the book, I found my blog in the back. No joke. I was listed as someone who shared their journey. I nearly peed my pants reading that. I also find it funny because I’ve never gone the full 21 days before. hahaha Maybe Diane needed an example of real life / finishing meh. hahhaha Anywho, I am doing the photo challenge again, and it’s really cool to see how God has completely changed my perspective this time around! The photos + this instagram captions below. (some of it is a repeat of what’s been said above. sorry)
Today is day 1 of the #21dsd — and it feels like day 1 of something a whole lot bigger! Honestly. My #goals for this sugar detox are to completely eliminate sugar for the whole three weeks, but mostly to kick the wine. I don’t think there’s a problem with wine or loving it, but for my health it needs to go. My functional medicine doc says I have candida (along with a whole slew of other things like PCOS) and the best way to eliminate that and get healthy is through dietary changes. I tried over the summer, but got frustrated every month when I wasn’t pregnant. So I would binge on junk food and wine to say screw got body you don’t work right. However God has been doing a work in my heart to show me that I shouldn’t be healthy and whole for fertility, it’s because that’s how he made me. So I’m doing this as a kickstart into the anti candida diet. And I’m doing it for me. Not for fertility, although I do hope that all works out. Hopefully my hormones can get to where they need to be and I can be healthy! And I also hope my acne gets better. Just being honest!
#21dsdphotoaday #day2 #before I wasn’t sure what to use as a before picture. As I said yesterday, it’s about so much more than cutting sugar for me. But one main reason is to regulate blood sugar. I HATE the 3 pm slump / blood sugar crash. It has me turning to coffee and dragging til later at night. I feel drained all the time and there’s a certain pep in my step that’s missing. I’m sure there’s adrenal issues going on too, but we shall deal with things one step at a time. I am also excited for the acne to go away, but didn’t wanna post a red faced blotchy pic. Hahaaha
#21dsdphotoaday #day3 #inspiration So I just found my blog posts / photos from my last sugar detox in 2013. It’s crazy how different my goals and inspirations were. Yes I wanted to clean up my diet, but it was more about checking things off a list. This time it’s completely different. It feels different. It’s more spiritual. I’ve been praying a lot. Because I know this is more of a soul shift for me. It’s choosing to be wholly healthy. To heal my body from the inside out. And God is totally doing it already. My attitude is completely different. And really it doesn’t feel hard. It feels right. And praise goes to Him for that! I asked my girls for a verse on #health and Alice gave me this word. Such a great one. And perfect inspiration for this! #21dsd #soulsisters
#21dsdphotoaday #breakfast — the biggest thing that’s helped me be so successful this time is prep work. I started a little late (Tuesday night!) but I made buffalo chicken egg muffins (yum!) and mini meat loaves and some lemon melt away “not sweet treats.” Breakfasts and lunches are hardest for me because I’m always running late, well not late but I just prefer sleep to cooking, and I’m at the office for lunch (monday through Thursday). So the meat loaves have been great lunches, and egg muffins are easy enough to reheat. Plus it’s something fun and different!
#21dsdphotoaday #day5 #fridge our fridge is packed full of veggies and meat, also far too many jars of pickles and jams and condiments that really need to be sorted through. The freezer is full of veggies, meat, fruit (which I normally use in smoothies) and lots and lots of coffee!!
I love snacking on nuts, but plain almonds get old after a few days. So tonight I whipped up some Cinilla Nuts, from the #21dsd cookbook. Basically vanilla and cinnamon (plus an egg white and oil) baked onto your nut blend (I used almonds, macadamia nuts, and walnuts). So ready for the next work week! #21dsdphotoaday #day6
For those asking about the detox that I’m on, it’s the 21 day sugar detox. Basically cut out all sugar and sweeteners and retrain your mind and body to not crave carbs and sweets. For me it is a bit of an intro to the GAPS and I have no idea how long I’ll be doing it. But this is the book I’ve read and other #resources I’m using. Highly recommend it. #21dsd #21dsdphotoaday #day7 #oneweeknobooze
I’ve also been drinking 100+ ounces of water a day! It’s a miracle. Oh, and I can still have coffee. Praise the Lord!